Some things about me.

I'm a kind of a person who wants to do everything I'm really interested with as-soon-as-possible.

People may think how "I always want to do this and that" but it is just because I find LIFE really short and there are lots of interesting things that need to be explored and to enjoy. Like TRAVELING, I do also believe that people will only get the chance to live ONCE, so I want to grab and take the opportunity to see the WORLD.

I just don't wanna stuck in a place that I always see everyday. Though, I have some perceptions like that, but at the end of the day there are still things that I really wish to be with everyday of my life. Which is my FAMILY.

I like to do the impossible things and the very difficult things, but only those GOOD things. I am NOT GOOD at everything. I'm NOT a LISTENER to tell you the truth but it doesn't mean that I don't want to listen it's just that I'm just having a hard time in doing.

So, if you got upset with my actions please understand. I am not good at memorizing. Hates to be in a class but love to learn and understand things in life!

You will find me VERY HARD TO READ and HARD TO UNDERSTAND. 'cause I usually change plans and do something new again. Those are some small things about me!

I am LOST.

I am Lost.
Even when I know where's my way home.

I am Lost.
Even when I know where to go.

I am Lost.
Even I know what I want.

I am Lost.
Even I know myself.

I am Lost.
Even when I planned everything in my Life.

I AM LOST.

I have been SEARCHING for something that I don't even know what it is.
TRYING to know what the feeling I always feel inside of me.

Lucky the Blind person is. Though they cannot see, but they still know Brightness.
They are not lost, even all they see is DARKNESS.

I am Lost.
Maybe because there's X person who's trying to be with me and to explain to me all the things
I see. I feel. I do.

And NOW. I don't even know what I am trying to do.

FOREVER LOST.

The whole ME is HURT.

‎*Heart is in pain.

I thought they knew me more than anyone else.
But...
I was WRONG.
...
This is me, I have to be REAL. So accept who I am.

Honestly speaking, I am deeply hurt.
I never thought they will be the person who'll put me in this situation.

A situation that I am so unsure with all the things I DO.
A situation that I have to choose between pleasing them or my whole PERSONALITY.

Yes. I do admit that I had my own issues. Issues with myself which is being moody only because I don't feel telling it to people, even to my closest individuals. Yes. I like to keep it with me. And chose to be silent.

YES. I am like this. And this is me. Accept me for who I am.

Now. I am forced to change the person that I used to be. You won. I chose all of you, I did this to make you happy, but I AM NOT.

You only think and Judge me through my outlook, but can I ask you? Have you ever ask me? Or even try to understand why I act like this?

No. No. No. You. All of you NEVER did try to understand me. You only. And always, thinking of yourself, of what you feel.

Thank you. For what you did.

And I am now hopeless. Decided to be apart from you all. A best way to put this my-attitude-doesn't-fit-all-of-you issue is to be away.

Away.

Away.

Yes. I know. Running away from your problem is not the best way to do, but Running away from your problems is the best thing to do when.. YOU KNOW YOU DID EVERYTHING TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM BUT STILL IT DIDN'T WORK.

I am going to find a way to not put myself in a situation AGAIN that even I, my own self doesn't know who I am.

I am.. gonna be away to find what I have lost in ME.