" I just voted. After 20 years of existence, I had an edible ink on my finger."

October 25, 2010

"LOVE is looking for me. And I keep on Hiding from it! Cupids, hit your Arrows to someone who's looking for your Great gift called Love! AWAY!

Wearing love-proof vest! whew."

October 23, 2020

Be optimistic. Everything happens for a reason. Just believe and you'll get it. Do things as soon as you can, so in the end you won't regret.

Some things about me.

I'm a kind of a person who wants to do everything I'm really interested with as-soon-as-possible.

People may think how "I always want to do this and that" but it is just because I find LIFE really short and there are lots of interesting things that need to be explored and to enjoy. Like TRAVELING, I do also believe that people will only get the chance to live ONCE, so I want to grab and take the opportunity to see the WORLD.

I just don't wanna stuck in a place that I always see everyday. Though, I have some perceptions like that, but at the end of the day there are still things that I really wish to be with everyday of my life. Which is my FAMILY.

I like to do the impossible things and the very difficult things, but only those GOOD things. I am NOT GOOD at everything. I'm NOT a LISTENER to tell you the truth but it doesn't mean that I don't want to listen it's just that I'm just having a hard time in doing.

So, if you got upset with my actions please understand. I am not good at memorizing. Hates to be in a class but love to learn and understand things in life!

You will find me VERY HARD TO READ and HARD TO UNDERSTAND. 'cause I usually change plans and do something new again. Those are some small things about me!

I am LOST.

I am Lost.
Even when I know where's my way home.

I am Lost.
Even when I know where to go.

I am Lost.
Even I know what I want.

I am Lost.
Even I know myself.

I am Lost.
Even when I planned everything in my Life.

I AM LOST.

I have been SEARCHING for something that I don't even know what it is.
TRYING to know what the feeling I always feel inside of me.

Lucky the Blind person is. Though they cannot see, but they still know Brightness.
They are not lost, even all they see is DARKNESS.

I am Lost.
Maybe because there's X person who's trying to be with me and to explain to me all the things
I see. I feel. I do.

And NOW. I don't even know what I am trying to do.

FOREVER LOST.

The whole ME is HURT.

‎*Heart is in pain.

I thought they knew me more than anyone else.
But...
I was WRONG.
...
This is me, I have to be REAL. So accept who I am.

Honestly speaking, I am deeply hurt.
I never thought they will be the person who'll put me in this situation.

A situation that I am so unsure with all the things I DO.
A situation that I have to choose between pleasing them or my whole PERSONALITY.

Yes. I do admit that I had my own issues. Issues with myself which is being moody only because I don't feel telling it to people, even to my closest individuals. Yes. I like to keep it with me. And chose to be silent.

YES. I am like this. And this is me. Accept me for who I am.

Now. I am forced to change the person that I used to be. You won. I chose all of you, I did this to make you happy, but I AM NOT.

You only think and Judge me through my outlook, but can I ask you? Have you ever ask me? Or even try to understand why I act like this?

No. No. No. You. All of you NEVER did try to understand me. You only. And always, thinking of yourself, of what you feel.

Thank you. For what you did.

And I am now hopeless. Decided to be apart from you all. A best way to put this my-attitude-doesn't-fit-all-of-you issue is to be away.

Away.

Away.

Yes. I know. Running away from your problem is not the best way to do, but Running away from your problems is the best thing to do when.. YOU KNOW YOU DID EVERYTHING TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM BUT STILL IT DIDN'T WORK.

I am going to find a way to not put myself in a situation AGAIN that even I, my own self doesn't know who I am.

I am.. gonna be away to find what I have lost in ME.

A wonderful night for dancing and singing!

I don't care if it is Sunday, all I care is, it's time to groove. lalallalalalalalala!!

Music is playing in my mind, body's starting to dance the beat in my heart..

Let's Get it on!

Incase of "changes in holiday plans"

Ahm. Because of the unexpected happenings, I fixed my mind to change the whole itinerary of my upcoming holiday. Don't worry, I'm not disappointed actually I'm getting really excited. haha! Wanna know what are my plans?

MAY
13- Make myself busy recollecting past and achievements. Eat a lot of junk foods.
14- Wake up very-very late. If possible enjoy the rest of the day sleeping.
15- Shopping? maybe. If my mom send me my allowance. hoho.
16- General Cleaning in the house. Kill rats and cockroaches.
17- Grocery time. A lot of foods.
18- Go to 1 Borneo window shopping.
19- Part-time Job. Hopefully. MONEY.
20- Do tentative plans for the activities of Student council in the college.
21- Continue my school work. Do proposals.
22- Go for a night walk with friends.
23- Watch movies as many as I can afford. haha.
24- Go Island hopping.
25- Girls' Day out!
26- Day Dreaming. toink.
27- Practice cooking.
28- Clean my cabinet. Get rid of the 'cannot use anymore' clothes.
29- Fetch my sister from the airport.
30- Preparing for the Orientation Week.
31- Go to the beach and do soul searching.

* Probably 'll do a lot of soul searching! Duh! haha.
* Enjoy the rest of my stay here in KOta Kinabalu, Malaysia.
Wish me LUCK! yo! yo!


Note: Written last 6 May, 2009 @ 11:44am.

The meaning of my name.

S : You are very broad-minded.
U : You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
E : You are a very exciting person.
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B : You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
I : You are always smiling and making others smile.
E : You are a very exciting person.
N : You like to work, but you always want a break.

You are very broad-minded. You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards. You are a very exciting person. You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people. You are always smiling and making others smile. You like to work, but you always want a break.

Tambien is Flying! .... To Singapore.

Tambien is Flying to a place that is amazing!

Done with the packing. I'm just waiting.

Getting sooo excited and can't stop from smiling!

Last two months ago I was just sitting, thinking of what to write in the checklist

and I ended up with these!

CHECKLIST:

- Passport
- Return tickets
- Itineraries
- Money
- Exchange Rates
- Leisure
- Shopping
- Hop-in, Hop-on.

BUT.. Oops. One thing is important time to tell mommy and daddy, about the thing about 'flying'.
They never knew I'm going that's why I have to tell them 'cause lying is a bad thing.

Birth date is coming, and a gift must be given. A simple traveling gift is precious and so I'm going!

Before another chapter of this life will come to an ending, I must have something to award myself from a job-well-done.

AND so now.. I'm about to watch, learn and experience the new chapter of the 'life adventure of Tambien, I'm wishing you'll be there cheering!..

Note: Written on 6th May, 2010 @ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Love can never apart us

I read a book entitled Sundays at Tiffany's.

There was a quote that caught a thought in my mind, that says "Love can never apart us".

Which is true for me. Wherever you go whatever you do if you love someone -- your Family, Friends or someone special-- means there's no such thing as goodbye, as long as love is in the air and deeply carved inside your heart you won't be separated.

Love can make every thing in the WORLD alive. Whether you are bad or good, rich or poor, real or imaginary and whether you are dead or alive.