New Year's Resolution.

> Learn to ACCEPT and don't be DISAPPOINTED easily.

Whatever opportunity comes grab it, try to WIN it. But Don't be so Ambitious that you'll end up greedy and asking for more. What ever is in the table be it, be contented. Once you reached it, be thankful and enjoy the happiness and the triumph. If you lose. Accept it, move on and find something else more in to you, something interests you.

> Learn to be CONTENTED.

What ever is in the table be it, be contented. Do not ask for something that is way beyond your imagination and out reach of hand. Whatever ALLAH give you accept it and be thankful, cause if you do so the more you will get. If you really want more, pray for it and one step at a time try to achieve and learn along the way.

> Go with the FLOW.

Do not always try to be different and excel too much with the others. Once you're up there, for sure you won't be happy 'cause you are alone.

> Learn to APPRECIATE little things.

Appreciate the little things happening in your life.

> Lastly, Live. Laugh. Love.

LIVE. Be in the present, Nevermind the past. Plan for the future but still enjoy and always live in the Present Time.

It's Christmas Day!

Aww. This time of season I do always wish to be in one place. That place is Ilo-Ilo City Philippines. It is the only place that I truly feel the spirit of Christmas. A time for giving, loving and Family gathering.

Now, I'm in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. Alone. Celebrating by myself. Last night I slept at 12.45am. When the clock strikes at 12 Midnight I heard people from the neighboring apartments, shouting "yangseeeeenngggg!" (I think - hope I heard it right, correct if Im wrong). nyayls!

I checked my watch then it's Christmas EVE! I greeted my Christian friends in my phonebook. I felt an excitement but it suddenly went away. I thought. "Yes! It's Christmas" but no celebration for me. I can't feel the spirit of Christmas. Then wished. Hope on New Year, even though I'm not with my family, I'll find happiness and peace within ME.

Just a quick thought.

Actually..

I do have some sort of feelings now. A feeling of sadness and eagerness.

Sadness.

I feel so left alone. I think and I'm pretty sure this time around where people are in the Celebratory mood no one even remembers me. I cried. I felt like I'm trapped and locked in some place that I don't even know.

But then. I thought. It's my fault. Why? Because I was the one who decided to be adventurous and to travel and study abroad. So, people got used to me, leaving and always nowhere at there sides.

Eagerness.

Though I felt sadness there's also the feeling of eagerness. Eagerness to strive hard and be really a successful person. I know when I am able to reach my goals I will be able to go back to my place and as mush as I can I will be around the people who are important to me. In that way I won't be forgotten and so I'm always around them!

Whatever. That's just a quick thought came up from my mind today. haha! xoxo!

Put a smile on your face instead of Make-up,

Carry Love & Respect with you, instead of expensive brands like Prada,

Secure your life w/ Prayers, better than paying Life insurance.

Make your life more Valuable, if you don't want it to be a trash in the end.

Live life as if you're dying, so you'll know how to live! :>

Holiday Drama.

Almost every people I know are looking forward to a wonderful december Break.

I can see happy faces whenever they tell me about their Christmas vacation.

With all the excitement in their voice, the glimpse in their eyes when they say the word 'xmas and New Year'!

Instead of being JEALOUS, all I can say is

"Hintay lang,... BABAWI din ako Next Year". haha!

My daily thoughts.

Monday:

Accepting the fact that I can never bring back the old times and that everyone is meant to say 'Goodbye', including me.

Tuesday:

eyes closed. mind at peace. relaxed. stress free. dreaming. As if I'm at the beach sitting and enjoying the beautiful sunset.

Wednesday:

Do not always trust the 'Good Looking people'. 'cause sometimes behind those faces will only make tears flow from your eyes.

Mother Instinct.

Woke up this morning at 6:38 am, heard my phone-- ringing.
When I checked it, mama is calling.

She said, she just wanna know if I were fine.
I didn't even told her what my problem was.

We talked. I cried. and felt better.

Listening to her warm voice and inspired by the words of wisdom.

After all the heartaches. Trials. I feel so so fine after I told everything to my mama.

She knows what I'm, going through without even telling her anything.

Feed your FISH.

Not long ago, I went to GAYA street---- Sunday market in KK city---.
I was planning to buy fish as a pet.
walking. walking. walking.
Looking. Looking. Looking.

Then.....

I saw Mr. Johary--the international Exco before in our college. He's actually one of my closest staff in school. He was there! And together with his friend they're selling fish as their business, and he found out that I was about to buy my own fish.......

I already bought everything for my Fish (aquarium and food) but still looking for the lucky pet. Then there's this Angel fish that Mr. Joe gave me-- 2 Angel Fishes. Was so happy then went home immediately.

After 2 weeks. Fish Died. :( don't know why)

Went back to GAYA again to buy another pair of fish. Then same thing I saw Mr. Joe and gave me AGAIN another pair of fish but this time not the Angel Fish but the little little fish one. haha!

After 2 weeks. Fish Died AGAIN.

Oh MAN! I just thought that I'm not good at taking care of pets. Because even my plant was dying! Instead of getting green leaves it has super yellow leaves! hmmp!

To those who have pets like FISH make sure to FEED them.
FEED them properly. Do not over FED or don't make them super hungry. 'Cause that's what I did. :(

RAIN.

I woke up early this morning to have an early morning JOG. But Damn! It rained!

Said 'YES'! Better go back to my smoothy inviting bed and hug my mucho fatty pillow!

Haha! Then! pooof! Change my mind. Don't want to go back to sleep, getting fed-up by the things need to do this day.

Good thing! MR. Jaime my savior. He's present today! haha! Got NET at home tuloy. So instead of going back to sleep I surf the net, post my pictures in Facebook, made some comments to my friends and thennn.. Here I am. in blogspot.com, writing some non-sense stuff about my morning distractions. hoho!

Wanna know what will I be doing this DAY??!!

Here's my Things to DO.

- Jog. -canceled. :(

- Go to CLASS.

- Promote "Prom NITE".

- Eat Lunch at home.

- Back to school.

- Conduct a meeting with Student Council

- Fun time at Growball.

- Do my Laundry

- Leisure time.

Well. well. well. Nothing's really interesting just one of my random days. :) peace out man!

My moment of time.

Sitting at mcdo: Eating my medium french fries and applelicious pie, while enjoying reading some of my friends' blog posts. A better way on how to appreciate the moment of my time.

I'm actually searching for the perfect timing to start all over again.

* This was my last post in Facebook.

future holds.

Don't know what will happen to me in the future. Anytime soon I will be finishing my Diploma. The last time we had a mock interview in the class there was one question that asks "Where will you be in 5 years time?" hmm. suddenly, I felt my heart beats like a drum and my mind seems like a phone without a memory card 'cause I don't know what and how to answer. I'm like a stone in there, finding words to say. But damn, none. I can't picture myself 5 years from now and that makes me sick! I don't what my future holds.

"Forever in the Twilight"

Disco lights are on the air! Music will make you high!

Forever in the Twilight!

A romantic night for you and your friends!

LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO BE MY COMPANION

Words of poems playing in my mind, thinking of the words that will rhyme.
My head is starting to feel itchy, when suddenly I felt I am lonely.


Looking for someone to be my companion, but no one else to be my someone.
My heart is starting to cry, and feels that my life will turn to dry.


Living away with somebody, can’t stop thinking of them everyday.
This is the only way I can express that my heart feels sadness.


I wish I can be like superman, fly high like an airplane.
And so I could find that someone that will make my life will bloom again.
That my day will be fine again.

Fulfilling someone's wish.

The inspiration of this note is the person who's with me for not so long but she has been a FRIEND through thick and thin, let's just call her under the name of "ideal ATE".

It was her birthday last night. For me to return the favor that she gave to me and for the rest of my friends in Malaysia, I suggested to organize a small wedding ceremony. A dream that she has been waiting for to come true. Of course it won't be possible enough without a groom, with the full support of her ever loving boyfriend everything was perfect.

She has been dreaming of getting married, and though it was not a real one, we were still able to fulfill one of her greatest wish in the world.

THE SHADOW

I am walking alone in a solitary road

I am thinking about the feelings I felt.

Now I know that you’ll never be mine.

I will never get the chance to warp my arms around you

All my dreams for you will never be come true

Everything I have for you will be buried in my mind and in my heart.

From the start I already know the ending.

Fate brought me to you and destined to be your shadow.

But eventhough I will always be your light when everything turns dark.

I accept the fact that I was born to be your shadow follows you everywhere and loves you no matter what. You will never be alone as long as I’m here.

After all the chaos that love has brought me

I’m still hoping that you’ll recognize that the soul of the shadow that kept on loving you unconditionally is ME.